To Him

Happy Birthday, Alex! :)

Long live Alex Skyline!!!!

how

How can you be sure? How could you know? How can't you feel?
How can you be alive if he's not there? How can you still keep thinking? How can everything be a mess?
Hell

And now what?

There I was - waiting. I was waiting for something to happen. I was claiming that whenever it happened, I wouldn't need anything else. Now it's here and I haven't stopped needing - quite on the contrary. I keep needing; more than before. The feeling is that the needs have increased in the same proportion to the loss of the self.

My personal drive has gone awry, though, from time to time, it shows its tip on the surface. And that's precisely when an avalanche hits my head, and I feel the urge to change the whole thing again - the revolving side of revolution.

And now what?

There's a blank space, longing to be filled. I write it down, and erase it right away. I write it back again, erase again. And now what? I know the answer, but I don't want to give it.

And now what?

I was flat out wrong. Actually, I knew, each time I said that, I knew. I knew it was untrue. Still, I kept repeating it and well, somebody out there heard, and, most of all, believed me. Then, I was given what I asked for. And the only thing I keep asking myself, now, is: "And now what?"

How love should be

Flowers for my heart, tender words,
And a gentle touch that says so much
This is how I've heard that love should always be.
Love light in his eyes, he'll look at me
And in one bright moment, I will see
That all my dreams of love are just as love should be.
I have dreamed that he will give me wings to fly,
And give my soul a taste of paradise,
That I will feel the magic of romance,
By his side.
There'll be music in my head when I hear him say,
That he loves me now and everyday,
This is how I've heard that love should always be.
I will feel the magic of romance,
By his side.
No matter how long it takes to find him,
I will let my dreams remind me,
That somewhere out there he's waitin for me...
Just waiting to show me how love should
Be.
Show me, show me how love should be.

And there goes Reka Toth the gentle wEiRd-FiSh on the road...

F#@%king grass... always f#@%king greener...

F#@%king grass is always greener on the others side!

Just got be kidding me, I water this shit and when I think will get green I look around...

We are never satisfied with out own garden, why?

Don't know what kind of plants I want in my garden, then I decided to give grass a go

But look around! I'm not saying mine is not green

It's just not the greener

My life is great!

Is it?

Do I have all I want?

Right, I got what I need. But does it make my life great?

No It just makes it better than the life of some few people who are suffering for all I already got.

It's so hard not to compare, but on the other hand is necessary...

Oh gosh!

I need to be set free from myself, just found out I'm my worst enemy!